Daily Prompt: Waiting

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I'm still waiting

On what, I don't know

For something good

For respect

For major changes

For enthusiasm

For self-confidence

For self-love

For true happiness

For attention

On what, I don't know

I'm still waiting

 

Family Dinner

via Daily Prompt: Argument

We all know the holidays are coming, which is supposed to bring cheer, good will, and of course family get together. Tis the season!!! I do believe to be jolly is what follows that saying but let’s be real, it isn’t always so.

There’s nothing worse than sitting down to a beautifully prepared meal and an argument breaks out. You are sitting there with the best china, good friends, and family when all of a sudden, your sibling wants to fight. REALLY???? Why can’t you just have a nice meal? Your poor mother is distraught. Why wouldn’t she be? After all, she’s been preparing for days to make sure everything was perfect.

After about ten minutes, words have been said, feelings have been hurt, and someone is crying. And for what? No doubt it was over something so silly and so immature that it could’ve been avoided to begin with. All because of jealousy I’m sure. This is one of the main problems with family. One thinks the other has or gets more than they do. It’s just not fair. Well they have all the attention now.

I really hope the holidays bring you peace and joy. With nothing but love and compliments from each other. Don’t argue. It’s just a waste of time and nobody benefits from it. If anything, the only benefit is a bad time.

Keeping Promises

via Daily Prompt: Promises

What is a promise? To be clear, I have defined it for you.

a declaration or assurance that one will do a particular thing or that a particular thing will happen.

Now that we are clear, let's talk about promises. How many promises have you made and how many have you kept? Let's be real, we would all like to think that all promises are made good by the person that made it. Especially if it's something we've been wanting.

Life is never really lived on promises. It's a good thing because probably over half of promises made get broken. It's ashame too. People intend to do well by someone and when time comes they can't produce whatever it was. Thus leads to broken hearts, disappointment, and anger.

The sad part is, after someone repeatedly makes you promises and breaks them, leads to distrust. That's not a good thing. You eventually begin questioning everything they say to you.  It's hard to be around someone like that not alone live with someone whom you can't depend on.

I hope that when you make a promise, it's within your means to make it happen. There's nothing better than to have someone deliver. It lifts your spirits and can sometimes make a bad day, better. Keep in mind, you wouldn't like a broken promise.

The Christmas Tree

via Daily Prompt: Tree

The Christmas tree is a figment of what you believe Christmas to be.  For many of us, our tree represents our own spirit of the holiday. It speaks volumes about what kind of mood we set for ourselves that time of the year.

Me, however, my tree changes year to year. It is either white or green and depending on the theme, the color of lights must coincide with the decor.  From there, we must decide what will be the right ornaments. Afterall, it has to be perfect.

A Christmas tree is something of sheer beauty, in which one can merely stare at forever. It's especially beautiful when you turn off the house lights and let the tree radiate in its own glory.  If the tinsel and lights are just right, it is truly stunning.

Daily Prompt: Panic

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If there is one thing I can actually elaborate on, it's panic.  Being diagnosed with anxiety and panic disorder, along with Agoraphobia, is no fun.  The combination is merely a disaster.  For those of you who don't know what Agoraphobia is, it's the fear of leaving one's safe place.  Meaning, to venture out somewhere unknown is traumatic.

I was diagnosed with these conditions after having a hysterectomy.  The hormone changes caused a chemical imbalance and led to the most awful chain of events.  I have always known a little fear but not like this.  This is something that is so indescribable.  It is the worse feeling in the world.  You never know from day to day if you are going to be able to go the store, the doctors, or your child's school events.  It's frustrating to say the least.

I remember when it first began after surgery.  The intense fear.  Fear so real that I could not understand what was happening.  Hyperventilating, sweating, and tears were being released from my body and there was nothing I could do.  My body would literally be sick. My mind would race a hundred miles an hour.  What in the world was happening. I could not even walk out the front door.

Needless to say, after trials of medications to get this fixed, I have found a fit.  Unfortunately, I will probably be on them the rest of my life.  It has caused severe depression, anxiety, and of course panic in everyday life.  Traveling, going shopping, and any event really has become an issue.  I, however, am strong. I am learning to cope with the meds and trying to conquer these fears.  I am hoping someday to overcome this madness and return to life as I once knew it.

It's been six years now.  I am able to go more places and learn to cope a little better in public.  Maybe, just maybe, I am finally getting some life back.